Sin and forgiveness

 I’ve been thinking a lot about sin, my sins to be more exact.  Being raised Christian, one must believe in Jesus Christ as their Savior.  One must also confess their sins and ask for forgiveness.  Easy enough…until it’s not.

What about the things done or thoughts that are sinful but I don’t and won’t ask for forgiveness for.  Don’t worry I haven’t murdered anyone.  

My sins are between me and my maker, but I will say, there are things I have done and plenty of thoughts I’ve had that I don’t feel are wrong.  

I truly believe God knows what’s in our hearts, so asking for forgiveness has to be true, has to be truly felt.

There are things I feel zero guilt about, even though society and my religion says I should.

Does this mean if I die, I’m signing my name to a Hell list?  Will God put judgement upon me because I haven’t always believed Jesus is the one true Savior?  Will I be condemned to Hell because I don’t believe one has to believe in Jesus to go to Heaven?  After all, the Ram Das nor Eli Wiesel were Christian…I won’t believe they are not allowed into Heaven.  Will I be condemned to Hell because I find God in nature but rarely in church?  This part of my journey is horribly frightening to me. 

Some may think well, change your ways and beliefs before surgery but I know God will know it will all be false.

Thankfully, I don’t think about this a lot but when I do, I go down a rabbit hole.  I guess I just hope I don’t die before I figure it out.

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  1. UnknownDecember 21, 2021 at 6:31 AM

    Summer, you are a child of God. Christ died for all your sins; you are forgiven because of what He did, not because of what you do or don't do. God knows your heart and when anyone dies, we entrust them to God's mercy because all of us deserve hell. Thankfully we have a Savior sitting beside the Father interceding for us by saying 'remember I died for her sins.' Be at peace, you are forgiven, but that doesn't mean you should just go out and do stupid things!!!
    Now get your head back into a positive attitude and thank God for every day you have on this earth. Hopefully someday you will be my age. In the meantime, you are a strong woman with so many words of encouragement for others going through tough times. Focus on the needs of others (including your many critters).

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