Knitting for calm


 I have found knitting to be the key to calm.  All I know how to knit is scarves but I’m okay with that.

I had grand plans of doing yoga and meditation as I prepared for surgery to bring calm. This did not happen. Perhaps knitting is my form of meditation.  Plus, I will be able to keep knitting as I heal.

Everybody and their dog might be getting scarves by the time I’m done considering my calm is disappearing and knitting helps immensely.


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